24/08: Too much to do, too many lives to live..
Yay! hurrah for anarchy!
Well, we had a good discussion, though it didn't seem like there was any interest in intervention..or more like passion. We ultimately decided to pick up and move the video project forward since we have so many people that are experienced in filmmaking, but we decided it should have some sort of social message. I'm not sure what this will mean, but if it is successful, I'll be busy for a while.
I'm almost done with my gamer fanzine. I don't know how I feel about it. In some ways, I'm using proprietary gaming material and relying on it to make connections with gamer culture outside my own little bubble. I'm not sure if this is going in the direction I want it to, nor do I know if I'll be able to make the kind of connections I want to in this environment.
I'm finding myself in constant contradiction lately, mainly because my life is so separated from itself. Its fucking stupid. I've got some friends that don't like other friends or don't feel like they fit in or share interests or some other excuse. I've maintained these relations and I prioritize my time based on how I utilize my time and space. I have an office and I have a home and my life revolves around these two aspects as they already consume so much of my time anyway.
"Columbus is Dead" may move away from monthly publication. Its already a small monthly and it would save mental energy to do issues after the September issue (issue #6) either every other month or quarterly. Interest hasn't grown, but we've ran only 40-100 copies of each issue and I hope by expanding our time I can spend more of in-between issue time distributing copies around town.
I've not gotten to spar in almost a month and I feel slightly ashamed of myself. I've taken a break due to the project overload I was having and the constant time conflicts and struggle just to get everyone together for a couple of hours. Same with working out. I think I have to make a more conscious decision to work on this, but also I need to rework how we are approaching it so it can remain interesting and inviting. I also get tired after a flux in participation, when interest peaks and then rapidly declines as people attempt to adjust to the disruption in their life.
I've spent much more time thinking about things this past year and composing my thoughts than previous years, but I'm getting the same amount of work complete as well. I think that once I'm done with my obligations in making this office run I'll either goto college again to see if I can get a skill and pose like I'm working class with a sweet paycheck. If I get this sweet paycheck, I'll do what Peter Gelderloos did and get arrested in a foreign country, but instead I'll get arrested in style, sipping martinis and sun-bathing in the nude. If I don't goto college I'll fall back to what I do best, unskilled labor. Re-poverty! Its like rewilding but without the egalitarian sentiment!
Well, we had a good discussion, though it didn't seem like there was any interest in intervention..or more like passion. We ultimately decided to pick up and move the video project forward since we have so many people that are experienced in filmmaking, but we decided it should have some sort of social message. I'm not sure what this will mean, but if it is successful, I'll be busy for a while.
I'm almost done with my gamer fanzine. I don't know how I feel about it. In some ways, I'm using proprietary gaming material and relying on it to make connections with gamer culture outside my own little bubble. I'm not sure if this is going in the direction I want it to, nor do I know if I'll be able to make the kind of connections I want to in this environment.
I'm finding myself in constant contradiction lately, mainly because my life is so separated from itself. Its fucking stupid. I've got some friends that don't like other friends or don't feel like they fit in or share interests or some other excuse. I've maintained these relations and I prioritize my time based on how I utilize my time and space. I have an office and I have a home and my life revolves around these two aspects as they already consume so much of my time anyway.
"Columbus is Dead" may move away from monthly publication. Its already a small monthly and it would save mental energy to do issues after the September issue (issue #6) either every other month or quarterly. Interest hasn't grown, but we've ran only 40-100 copies of each issue and I hope by expanding our time I can spend more of in-between issue time distributing copies around town.
I've not gotten to spar in almost a month and I feel slightly ashamed of myself. I've taken a break due to the project overload I was having and the constant time conflicts and struggle just to get everyone together for a couple of hours. Same with working out. I think I have to make a more conscious decision to work on this, but also I need to rework how we are approaching it so it can remain interesting and inviting. I also get tired after a flux in participation, when interest peaks and then rapidly declines as people attempt to adjust to the disruption in their life.
I've spent much more time thinking about things this past year and composing my thoughts than previous years, but I'm getting the same amount of work complete as well. I think that once I'm done with my obligations in making this office run I'll either goto college again to see if I can get a skill and pose like I'm working class with a sweet paycheck. If I get this sweet paycheck, I'll do what Peter Gelderloos did and get arrested in a foreign country, but instead I'll get arrested in style, sipping martinis and sun-bathing in the nude. If I don't goto college I'll fall back to what I do best, unskilled labor. Re-poverty! Its like rewilding but without the egalitarian sentiment!
